Forgiveness is an attribute of the strong…but it’s ok if you’re a little weak sometimes.

Every week I read postsecret. If you don’t, you should, because it’s pretty cool. People send postcards with their secrets on them to this guy named Frank, and he scans them and puts them on his blog. All kinds of secrets come in from all over the world. I myself have made a couple, but never sent them in…fortunately I can say that the secrets on those cards aren’t secrets anymore.
Sometimes I’ll read them and laugh, sometimes it makes me cry. And sometimes one will stick with me for no reason. But other times I’ll read a secret and want to reply to it, and I really don’t have any idea how to do that. So I’m going to do it in my blog.

Today, there was this:

Dear Scared,
I don’t remember much good from high school anymore. There are fleeting moments, and the occasional inside joke, but they are nothing more than snapshots of memories. I don’t recall anything good from college, either. But, for me, the two things are not related, as they are for you.
I do, however, remember plenty of bad stuff. What’s crazy is that I’m pretty sure I had more good times than bad ones, but the bad ones were SO bad, they edge out the happy memories.
I, like you, had someone I needed to forgive. And for a very long time, I couldn’t do that. I pretended like I could. I told people I did. But deep down, I didn’t. I didn’t think I ever would. And because of that, I, too, started losing those happy memories and focusing on the bad ones. And I regret it, of course, because I don’t remember many happy times anymore. I wish I did. I wish I could call up all my friends from high school and have them tell me about the good times we had, because I KNOW there were great times. I just don’t remember them.
And I know that you’re afraid you won’t remember, and I cannot promise you that you will.
What I can tell you is that one day, quite unexpectedly, I found it in my heart to forgive that person. And despite losing a part of my past, my future has been beautiful ever since.
So maybe it doesn’t matter if you’re losing a memory, so long as you’re able to make a better one.
I wish you luck.
~Stagequeen

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